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A Letter To My Baby

On July 12, 2010, I was watching Dateline and it showed a story of a man who had a disable son. His son was in his thirites now and was confined to a wheelchair for his whole life. He was also unable to talk. The father and his son ran marathons, the father pushing his son in his wheelchair. The son, who could only type on a keyboard to communicate, typed that when he and his dad ran marathons together, he didn't feel disabled anymore. He felt like he was running too.

I was about 6 weeks pregnant at the time, and I remember putting my hands on my stomach and crying so hard for this family. So I sat down and wrote this letter to my baby. This was before we knew he would be a boy, before we knew anything would be wrong, before I knew how much this letter would mean later. So here it is:

7-12-10

To my baby:

You are a miracle. You are supposed to be here. You are loved more than you can know. You are my child and nothing can change that.

I promise you that no matter what happens, I will fight for you. You are so important. Even if you were disabled, that wouldn't change a thing. But I know you will be heathly. Even if no one else wanted you, I will always want you. But I know you are loved by many.

Right now, you are only the size of a blueberry, but you have changed my life forever, and for the better.

If you ever feel like you are less than what you should be or that you're not good enough, just remember that at one time, a doctor told me you weren't going to make it. But you're heartbeat is strong and the doctor has changed her mind. You fought and you held on.

You are my miracle and I love you!

Love Always, Mommy

Comments

  1. UnknownApril 17, 2011 at 2:52 PM

    Wow Lacey! God was with you preparing your heart for the challenge ahead. I believe only after becoming a parent can we even begin to understand God's unconditional love for us. I believe God has a plan for you to advocate and protect children and it starts with Christian! I am so proud of you for trusting in our Lord and for the impact you will have on many!

    Blessings!

    Denise

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  2. Paga and BagaMay 9, 2012 at 1:37 AM

    You have few comments, but we are reading your blog. Don't stop. I don't know you, but I love you for keeping up the fight.
    Sarah

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  3. New Beginnings AcademyMay 10, 2012 at 9:00 PM

    You're amazing, and so is Christian. My prayers are with you

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  4. DebbieMay 12, 2012 at 11:54 AM

    I am so glad you wrote this down. Often I can go back and read my pray journal that I sporatically write in, only then can I see how God so PERFECTLY was preparing my heart for things to come. When we offer our life to God, to be used in His Service, we often do not know when difficulties arise that we are working for Him, fulfilling His plan for our lives. People can see God's love through His children when we are obedient to His Path for our lives. You are a great inspiraion to me. Please post more photos of Christians precious smiles and laughter if you find time.

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  5. NMay 12, 2012 at 10:25 PM

    I saw that video too and thought of it when I came across your story. Just like theirs, your story is such a testament of faith. Christian is darling (I love that picture of him smiling on your sidebar!) and I'm sure that he'll go on to do great things.

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  6. Elizabeth GriffinJune 20, 2013 at 7:08 PM

    You are such a beautiful person inside & outside. God MADE you for Christian!

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  7. UnknownJune 20, 2013 at 11:52 PM

    What an awesome God we serve.. He will not give us more than we can handle. He knew you would be the perfect mommy for this precious baby boy. He knew you would minister to others through the gift of life He gave you. He truly did prepare you and trusted you more than you could fathom. But a blessing u and Christian are to this world. May God continue to bless you each day

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  8. AnonymousJune 21, 2013 at 1:50 AM

    Now because of your love and perseverance lacey, Christian is loved by millions. Him and you are inspiring hope everywhere xxx God bless xxx

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  9. UnknownJune 21, 2013 at 6:23 AM

    You are amazing lacey, such an inspiration to all mothers in the whole world... christian is beautiful and so courageous and his new little brother im sure will look up to his big bro and aspire to be him... think of u all everyday xx

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  10. AnonymousJune 26, 2013 at 9:36 AM

    Beautiful letter! Love is the most great feeling. Christian is trully a blessing! So cute.

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  11. AnonymousJuly 9, 2013 at 10:05 AM

    U are amazing and keep on ....am sitting at a fast food and came across ur story belive i feel alot better now and make me think that theres nothing that dont happend for a reason......love u .....all u .........christian ..dont ever stop beliving in u or ur family and i dont know u but i wish i would ........be careful and take care ur family u the man

    .....

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  12. UnknownJuly 23, 2013 at 11:35 PM

    Wow..when I saw yout baby tonight for the fist time..I was not sure of what I was seeing..I have a 3 month old blessing myself..girl:)
    It brings rears to my eyes to see babys that have challenges in life:( but then I know its Gods will and nothing can change it..I dont know you or your fam..but I love ur baby and you! You are an admiration for being the mother that you are God could not find a better person to love and care for Christian than you..Blessings

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